新年快樂！

In times of resting, I find myself unhappy not to be productive.

This year is full of mixed luck for me so far. My only valuable material possession (my motorcycle) got stolen, then I was surprised to be reimbursed by my insurance and find another inexpensive motorcycle. A week after getting the new bike, I laid the bike down avoiding a car, but luckily a bi-standard was a great mechanic and fixed my bike in less then 24 hours. Even though it has been kind of a roller coaster ride, there is no way to overlook how much worse things could have gone and fail to be grateful for the good luck I've had this year. 

Since my hands were injured, I realized how much I do with them. In a few days I will have healed completely. Allot of change for me, new hands, a new vehicle. Hopefully soon a new job and a new home.

Hopefully this break in my life, lets me go in the right direction. I want to be honest with myself as far as what I have energy to do. Physics prerequisites and the BA are going very well. I hope to find the effort to resume studying for the MCAT. 

The way the year started, I feel like I can expect good things, but should be extra careful and prepared. 

I feel really grateful for my loved ones today; the more I need help, the more they look out for me without being asked. 

Playing Catch Up

Trying to start waking up at 6 AM again to get more done, hasn't really been working out lately. Therefore, I have been sleeping really late and missing jiu jitsu.

The year started off great and continued strong with the storage cleaning event. This week I started having problems sleeping for the first time that I can remember. I just took a 25 mg diphenhydramine, a melatonin supplement and a sleepy time peach tea. I already feel drowsy.

I have a tournament next weekend, but I have always had trouble being motivated to fight tournaments. There is good competition somewhere... but I can't bring myself to fight hard when there is nothing to gain by winning. 

My number one focus right now is getting my sleeping back under control. I also need to prepare my Bamboo Massage presentation for Friday morning. I want to start learning better Chinese and Japanese using Italki and Skype. I would love to find the secret to putting more effort into the things I do. I have been been staying on a healthy diet and completed the daunting task of cleaning the trash out of my dad's storage unit (with help). The year is going to be more focused on school and less on jiu jitsu and weightlifting then I would like, but it is very important how much I can stay focused and juggle volunteering because it is the last year before medical school. 

Today I was late waking up, but I managed to catch up on what I needed to do at night. Tomorrow I want to wake up at 6 AM. 

I feel optimistic today.